Motivation

I am lacking motivation again... I don't feel like doing anything. I should read my earlier posts on motivation. I know if I shower I will feel better and more like doing things. What to do.... For now I will just sit here and think about how I'm feeling and how I could feel better, think about things I'd like, people I'd like.

Earlier posts, goals docs, and family photos have helped somewhat with my motivation. I am doing some PC organisation now. I shouldn't force myself into doing things though, that will just make me resent it. I should stop everything I'm doing and just give my mind time to think freely and it will will organise its thoughts and decide on what it wants and why, and be excited to do things, because I am free to do whatever I want. 

Tv shows

I fell asleep this afternoon when I got home from from recording. Woke up at 9pm, now it's 1am and I still feel wide awake. Tomorrow I will wake up at 7:30 and stay awake all day to get my sleep pattern back in shape. I've been watching Brooklyn 99. Jt recommended it.

Name of my band

I'll use this post to brainstorm band names.

Ideas:

Grey scale
Black and white train
1973
1967
Colours before film
Yesterday's jam
Pictures of trains
Railroad
Side project 2
clearing in the woods
Memories of colour
Coloured dreams

The name isn't so important. What's more important is that members have conviction and confidence in the name of their band. These feelings will then shine through the music, and overtime people will relate the name to the good music.

Magic Island

My urge to design and build audio gear is strong today. I want my own place where the air and food are fresh, where I can design/build/fix audio gear, record music with friends, and have friends over. My friends from home could fly over and visit me. I could have cheap massages, meet travelling tourists. Perhaps I could do all of that here, in my new house.

Remembering people

I have more friends than i can remember.. people say hi to me and i can't remember their names, their faces smiling, i would have made them smile once upon a time, we would have shared a moment or three, but now they are nothing more than a faded memory.

I must be a very memorable Sky.

More recording.....

I wanted to see my mum and sister for a haircut today but I was needed for more recording. I'm so sleepy. I think my cough has gone now which is nice. I think my brain needs some off time. I shall give it that now

Loneliness, people, plans

Hi again,

More recording today, then dinner and movies with friends, then home sweet home. I went to facebook to check the spelling of Renae's name and again got distracted by a video of peppermint club jamming before our single launch. She liked how i repeated vowels when i typed words words. For example: "yeah it was goood".

Kristy just reminded me why I stopped talking to her, she's a pessimistic cynical idiot, who will forever retard herself further with her attitudes and lifestyles. Caring only makes me sad. I am strong, but bearing her is a lot of work that energy could be put to much better use.

So today i felt a little lonely, not being able to relate with people, talk to the people i wanted to. This doesn't matter. I will focus on the big picture. These short term issues are just distractions and obstacles. $600 a week from the house, passive investments, travel, worldwide cuisine, document my journeys, and profit from the documentation, then setup somewhere with fresh air and food to do business and record my album. I will have all the ladies i could ever want, i just have to stay focused, stay psychologically strong, and not get distracted by music and people.

I have been putting a lot of time into music and people this last couple of weeks, but with thomas and ellen going away for several months, that will give me plenty of time to fix up this house, sort the pc, build the new house, and get a good track record as a possible bonus. I could even splash out on ladies. I should try that, just to tick off the bucket list and confirm it as a goal. Just because it's bad once doesn't mean it will always be. My passive investments haven't done so well this last month, stay strong Sky, they will bounce back.

Why do I keep checking faceobook. I am giving into my emotions. Stick with the plan. The plan is good, it was made be me, I am wise. I can get this house finished before my next birthday, then begin endless travels.

I can meet people, I can show them whoever I want them to see, I can be whoever i want to be in their eyes, splashing out on gifts, rides, cash, food, drinks, fancy hotels. This song is so great. I'm in a poor state of mind now, I've forgotten what i wanted to write about. I can get out of this. It is late, perhaps it is best i just go to sleep. I'm having fun though. There were more things I wanted to talk about...

My views on Maisie are weird. I'd like to stay more relaxed and confident in who i am in social situations. I don't need to try to be happy/enthused, i can just portray my confidence in a relaxed fashion. Just remember who you are Sky, and things will go well.

Mineral water and lemon wedge

Oh my god, they gave me a mineral water with a lemon wedge. All the places I've played over the years and nobody has had mineral water. I feel like I'm being caressed by a sexy sensual women. This glass of mineral water has made my night. Now if only it was socially acceptable to take out my penis and start pleasuring myself.

Gold champagne + ef recording

I don't know where I am. I feel sick. I fucking hate grilld. Why is food in Perth so bad? Because people keep buying it. People are idiots. I'm just feeling angry because I feel sick. Everything comes back to physiological.

This place would be nice if it wasn't for the terrible hip hop music.

Yesterday I went to matt gios place to record keys for ensemble formidable. They changed their name to brassika, which I don't like. Only because its vegetable related, and the main reason they wanted to change name is so they weren't confused with formidable vegetable sound system. Matt Gio was only their briefly, we recorded with a guy called Dan. He had apparently been talking to James about me and how I liked the trampoline. James is the guy we recorded with down south. Everyone knows everyone in Perth. Me and Maisie had a nice chat while we were walking to get lunch. She really liked the piano I did for funky Romain. I came up with it on the spot, I usually play trumpet in that song. The piano was opened up and a ribbon mic was used. I should have asked about the preamp. The builtin pro tools organ sounded really cool.

I'm gonna forget a lot of stuff, but that's okay. I can remember it more interestingly than how it really happened. Wave rock is already such a blur, and it was one of the most amazing times of my life. I think I would have written a lot about it at the time. I've probably forgotten a lot of the things I wrote about. I know what I want to do now, I have a plan that I have consistent confidence in, so now I can make my brain super efficient, only keeping the necessary memories. But before I do that, I should document as many of the important events of my life as I can, copy all the photos from Facebook, they are not completely safe. And from now on, I will document things as I go, because there are a lot of good times still to be had. I am smarter, more skillful, and more charismatic than ever before. I just need the right people around me in the roght places to create fulfilling life experiences.

Back to the post title. Tonight is the gold champagne single launch. These pants are quite nice. I'm not overly happy with some of my keyboard tones, oh well, they'll get better. I'm.excited to do 2nd guitar. I left the group and came here to sulk about my awful meal and self reflect and get some exercise. I need a soda. I'll see of this place does mineral water. They seem like fun people. I should go and spice up their conversation, they talk about such boring things like work and marriage. I'll talk about zuchinni that plays back gammon and when I shagged a Swedish spy while fighting in nam.

Never ever eat at grilld ever again

Always always disappointing

Good plans + Fun times with old friends

Today the asbestos was removed from the back room. I have been organising my things, moving everything i on' want into the front room.

I will leave my tools in the back room temporarily while i install the walls. Then i'll need to find a good place for them. I should put them in a cupboard where they're not an eye sore. Then I can put them in the back corridor.

I can still make my original deadlines :) with a loooot of work this week. Gotta start my moving everything i don't want into the front room, look into record 2nd hand record stores, gyprock, trimming (including laundry), sanding, gap filling, painting, ceiling plastic, oven.

Back to the title of the post: I'm planning a party to see all my old friends. I have a lot of old friends i'd like to patch things up with, but more so just see again. I will have it once the main house is done. I'm thinking of having a garage sale before then as well, to get rid of my things. Will be on a sunday. Then I'll build the house out back, and have a big going away thing once that's done.

I'm thinking it'd be weird living with the people that pay me rent. So i might rent somewhere else and rent out this entire house. It'll be nice living somewhere else, and i can come check in here. That will be once the house is built out back. Then once i'm feeling confident with the tenants, i can travel. I can get some temporary people/friends in while i build the back house for the extra cash.

Ideas while trying to sleep

Fix speakers with tweeters. I can do the sewer line myself, and pay to have the gas done. Wall ceiling edge is called a cornice. Each power point is 10 amps, I can run 2 lines to the new house, one for lights and one for outlets, and meter them both. Gas outlets for heating, hot water, and kitchen.

Mastering People

I understand people so well now, and myself. I feel more confident interacting with others than ever before. I should go into details to remind myself for later. Try and look good, but don't stress over it once I'm out, just relax and be happy with who I am and how I look. I have confidence in who I am as a person. I put myself in the shoes of others. I know what people want to hear and can provide that. I am funny. I get familiar with unfamiliar people, and make them familiar with me so we can feel comfortable together, relax together. I can read people better than ever before, i know what to ask to really understand how they tick and the reasoning behind their decisions.

Mojo's markets

Today I finally made it to Mojo's markets, after all these years of attempting to go, but never waking up in time.

I met with marina, Amelia, her boyfriend, and a couple of other girls, 1 which I knew but couldn't remember her name or where I knew her, and another who I'd never met, her name was jasmine. This is like a strange dream. I've finally made it to Mojo's markets.  Its very surreal. That might just be the alcohol still I'm my system from last night and the iced coffee from just now. There are very few guys here, its almost all young attractive women.

Big night

Tonight I had a gig with peppermint club at Jimmy's den in north bridge. I got some sexy compliments. Tim and meg are cool :) tim wants me to play some trumpet for peppermint. He thought the brass was the best part of brow. Afterwards i went to zanes house warming party in maylands. Cindy, charlie, paul Melville, Chiara, Chris, Tim, and jess were there. Then I went to Phil's house warming. I spoke to some people on the train on the way there. I didn't arrive until 1am and there were only 4 people left; tom pow, keiren and his friend and a fat girl who said she was banging nic Owen but ended up in bed with tom pow.  Phil got on the train as I got off.

Shooting hoops

Today I took a basketball to the park with me and shot hoops. I made 40/100 from the free throw line. I'll see if I improve next time. Lots of sun, lots of exercise. Definitely worth the $20 for the ball.

I have been sick this week and have fallen behind schedule. I am going well enough now to work so I should adjust my milestone dates and resume working again 8 to 5. PC org is almost finished. Asbestos guy is coming monday so over the weekend I need to get cash out and clear out the back rooms. Then next week I can do the backroom.

I'm pleased with how much I've remembered from trading last year. I could be a great trader :) just need to consistently put in the work

Progress

I had a good trade week this week. First week back and trading. I also made a lot of progress organising my PC. Next week I will begin the renovations. Everything is planned out nicely. Today I got a blender and sandwich maker for the kitchen, some new drinking glasses, and a nice new towel.

I need to plan a way to increase my trade sizes as my as my positive track record continues. I'm thinking every two months I will move to the next fib number, until I reach the total value of my investments (currently about 45k), IF the two months are profitable. If not, I will go to the previous fib number. So I will go: 1 2 3 5 8 12 20 32 52.. That will take me 18 months. It is tempting to ramp up faster, but I'm only going to get better with more practice. Perhaps every month would be okay? Then I'll be up to my total in ~9 months. That's still a decently long track record. 

Piano moving

Today I helped Chen move a piano from his ex girlfriend's house to his house. She recognised me and saod hi but i dodnt know where id seen her from until I asked Chen. She used to come to brow shows while Chen was playing.  I have a gig with ensemble tonight but I am not feeling so well. I suspect it was the hamburger, too much energy for my body to break down then my immune system had less energy to fight off this flu. Meg and Tim live around the corner from Chen, they are good friends of his and manage his band, that I also play in. Attached are some pictures of the van we used to move the piano.

Motivation

It's really nice here. In my room, lying in my cloud staring bit the window, wide world of people and entertainment and knowledge to explore from under the covers. It can be hard to find the motivation to aim for anything more.

This week I have found motivation by listening to my music, and how great it would be to have my own studio with decent gear, where I can make music all day long. Imagine that in a nice warm humid climate where the air and food are fresh.  Listening to myself sing, drum and play guitar, this motivates me :)

Big plans

Today is Friday, last day of my first week working at home. It's been a good week, but i can make future weeks even better. I've got my PC working really well. Trade account working, and a nice organised system and schedule for working at home. Escorts are illegal in all of the USA except Nevada. This is disappointing. However, sperm donors can earn up to $1500 a month! This would cover all my travel expenses, but I need to be able to legally work there, more research needed on how to do that.

I haven't been doing my 1 hour of blogging per day. I can start that tomorrow.

Planning the holiday is taking more time than expected. Should be fun though. From there I can calculate how much income I need. I should build the house regardless, its guaranteed income. Should only take 6 months, then I'll have an extra $300 per week for travelling.

I should start setting some deadlines. They work. By end of the weekend I'll have my travel calcs done, then next week I can begin working on house, blogging, PC organisation, trading, donating, gardening.