Loneliness, people, plans

Hi again,

More recording today, then dinner and movies with friends, then home sweet home. I went to facebook to check the spelling of Renae's name and again got distracted by a video of peppermint club jamming before our single launch. She liked how i repeated vowels when i typed words words. For example: "yeah it was goood".

Kristy just reminded me why I stopped talking to her, she's a pessimistic cynical idiot, who will forever retard herself further with her attitudes and lifestyles. Caring only makes me sad. I am strong, but bearing her is a lot of work that energy could be put to much better use.

So today i felt a little lonely, not being able to relate with people, talk to the people i wanted to. This doesn't matter. I will focus on the big picture. These short term issues are just distractions and obstacles. $600 a week from the house, passive investments, travel, worldwide cuisine, document my journeys, and profit from the documentation, then setup somewhere with fresh air and food to do business and record my album. I will have all the ladies i could ever want, i just have to stay focused, stay psychologically strong, and not get distracted by music and people.

I have been putting a lot of time into music and people this last couple of weeks, but with thomas and ellen going away for several months, that will give me plenty of time to fix up this house, sort the pc, build the new house, and get a good track record as a possible bonus. I could even splash out on ladies. I should try that, just to tick off the bucket list and confirm it as a goal. Just because it's bad once doesn't mean it will always be. My passive investments haven't done so well this last month, stay strong Sky, they will bounce back.

Why do I keep checking faceobook. I am giving into my emotions. Stick with the plan. The plan is good, it was made be me, I am wise. I can get this house finished before my next birthday, then begin endless travels.

I can meet people, I can show them whoever I want them to see, I can be whoever i want to be in their eyes, splashing out on gifts, rides, cash, food, drinks, fancy hotels. This song is so great. I'm in a poor state of mind now, I've forgotten what i wanted to write about. I can get out of this. It is late, perhaps it is best i just go to sleep. I'm having fun though. There were more things I wanted to talk about...

My views on Maisie are weird. I'd like to stay more relaxed and confident in who i am in social situations. I don't need to try to be happy/enthused, i can just portray my confidence in a relaxed fashion. Just remember who you are Sky, and things will go well.